Pardon my lack of posts recently. It seems that my life has just been turned upside down since 2009 began. It's not a bad thing, because it's made me realise God's existence all over again. I am not extremely religious, and i don't like people to make me out to be. Especially cos i know that there are so many flaws in me tht i dare not stand up for God. And I want that to change.
There were times when i doubted, could it be that all i learnt at church were man conjured literature that at one point in history was a political ploy to add structure and civil to life, i even considered Nietzche's position on how religion is man invented to "escape" from the real life, to "explain" our hardships, to "justify" our fears and failures. i don't know philisophy well. but i know that God is as real as you believe Him to be. and tht's the beauty of faith. So, i choose to believe, not because i'm a coward and fear to live the real human life, but because of my courage to take that leap of faith. It's done me pretty well so far. i am at peace.
Why issit that deep within my heart, i know i am hardwired to believe in something beyond. Don't we all? Our instincts to believe in higher powers is as strong as our instincts to lie. Our parent's didn't sit us on their laps to say... "today, i'll teach you how to lie successfully". It's one of those things u just know about.
So dear god, i know u're there and u've proven to me again and again that your plans for me are greater than my own, ur wisdom is beyond what my limited brain can comprehend, and thanks for eventually helping me understand the way things happen so i can count my blessings. I am forever grateful that u've never forsaken me.
3 comments:
Hey, hope everything's alright with you. :)
RE your last paragraph: I share the same sentiments.
hey Yann, i'm fine not to worry. thanks so much for ur concern. i am glad that things are working out well for u.
Hi Ell... I just read your post. Yes, by surrendering wholeheartedly to Him it means we have faith that He will turn everything bad to good. Like you, I've had doubts. I couldn't see it before, but now I've learnt my lesson in life, and realised He's always faithful no matter what. I now know where doubts come from. It's the devil's job to keep us in doubt. I'm now always reminded His kindness in my life, which I had been taking them for granted. Now I realise if I am still breathing, it means God is still giving me His grace. He's a good God.
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